Terrible but it finally ended! Fuuh.. even now that it’s over, I feel like it’s haunting me. Close my eyes, and I see flashes of scary scenes from sem 2 dancing in my mind and that i have no control of. I felt like I went through a nightmare and almost reached hell’s door. Ok – so I exaggerated.
It was hard though. But tell me, which part of life isn’t?
It’s hard to say sorry. It’s even harder to forgive.
It’s hard to tell your bestfriend that they’re going the wrong way,
It’s even harder to accept the fact that you’re the one going the wrong way.
It’s hard to reach others and tell them God’s with them.
Try telling YOURSELF that, it’s harder!
It’s hard to stay good all the time.
Sem 2 was hard not because of the assignments. Though the lecturers seemed to be thinking that us the students only registered for his/ her class for the whole semester. No really, not because of that.
Sem 2 (thank God it’s over now) was hard not because of the few people that made things a lot harder. though i hated them. so much. i can puke just by looking at their faces.
It was hard because i parted from God. i wasn't doing what i was supposed to wholeheartedly. i did it. but there was no soul in it. i didn't give my all even for the one goal that i set my mind on from the very beginning i registered here. May God bless me and not let me stray too far and too long. i need strength. it's hard to make sure that you have clean heart all the time, to allow God's love to stay.
I stopped writing for a long time (not that I wrote much before. Haha..) i hope to write more in the future. but not as mush as i hope i'd be like myself then or even better.
